I’m so sorry that I’ve been gone for so long (I feel like way too many of my posts start with this sentence)! I’m finally back, and you can expect to see/read a lot more of me as soon as I’ve handed in my final pieces of assessment. Yesterday was my last day of uni for the whole semester and I’ve got to say, this semester was a tough one. I started a journalism minor and soon realised that it really wasn’t for me. Even just doing my assessment I felt like I was annoying and hassling people for information, and I can’t imagine that being my job. I was probably overthinking it the entire time but I’ve come to realise that my personality is the opposite of the ideal journalist’s personality. My lecturers made no secret of this, saying that we should just leave if we weren’t brave, gutsy and outwardly confident. I’ve now cancelled my journalism minor because I’m sure that’s not the industry I belong in. I’m so excited for next semester, because I’ll be able to put all of my focus into the creative aspects of my writing degree – but only if I get the grades I need to be accepted into the advance writing minor. It’s scary because I feel like this semester was made up of the four subjects I’m worst at, and this semester is the one that will decide whether or not I’ll get in. It’s been so frustrating because I felt like no matter how hard I worked, I just wasn’t on top of anything. Throughout my whole life, school/uni have kind of been the only things I was actually good at, so coming to terms with that confidence being taken away was hard. It made me feel like I wouldn’t be good enough to make it in the real world. Anyways, I’m rambling again, it just feels good to write everything down. Blogging is the best form of therapy.
Life has been really good overall, I’m still loving the job I told you about a couple of posts ago, although it’s making everything a little bit more stressful. I always wonder if the stressed feeling ever goes away, or if that’s just what life is. As a celebration of my last day of uni I gave myself a break last night. I went with my roommates to see the Australian Ballet dance “Giselle”, and it was absolutely amazing. Then we went to see a band from my old school perform at West End.
The main thing I really wanted to say with this is that my blog really needs to be revamped. It needs to be more focused, and the design definitely needs to be more grown up. I want to tell you about my experiences with going vegetarian, and I want to turn this into more of a lifestyle blog rather than a jumbled mess. I can’t believe I’ve been writing to you all since 2012, and it’s cool to be able to read back through my life and see how much has happened. It’s also super nice to be able to come back after being gone for over a month, and see that people from around the world are still reading my blog every day. It makes me feel like I really need to try harder and actually give you some good content to read, rather than just rambles about my simple life.
So after the 9th of June all of my assessment will be done and I’ll be free to write a whole lot more. I’m really looking forward to some freedom. I can’t wait to revamp this blog and turn it into something I’m proud of.
Tamara Joy xo