I’m Back! – Uni, Life, Blog Revamp

Hey Guys,

I’m so sorry that I’ve been gone for so long (I feel like way too many of my posts start with this sentence)! I’m finally back, and you can expect to see/read a lot more of me as soon as I’ve handed in my final pieces of assessment. Yesterday was my last day of uni for the whole semester and I’ve got to say, this semester was a tough one. I started a journalism minor and soon realised that it really wasn’t for me. Even just doing my assessment I felt like I was annoying and hassling people for information, and I can’t imagine that being my job. I was probably overthinking it the entire time but I’ve come to realise that my personality is the opposite of the ideal journalist’s personality. My lecturers made no secret of this, saying that we should just leave if we weren’t brave, gutsy and outwardly confident. I’ve now cancelled my journalism minor because I’m sure that’s not the industry I belong in. I’m so excited for next semester, because I’ll be able to put all of my focus into the creative aspects of my writing degree – but only if I get the grades I need to be accepted into the advance writing minor. It’s scary because I feel like this semester was made up of the four subjects I’m worst at, and this semester is the one that will decide whether or not I’ll get in. It’s been so frustrating because I felt like no matter how hard I worked, I just wasn’t on top of anything. Throughout my whole life, school/uni have kind of been the only things I was actually good at, so coming to terms with that confidence being taken away was hard. It made me feel like I wouldn’t be good enough to make it in the real world. Anyways, I’m rambling again, it just feels good to write everything down. Blogging is the best form of therapy.

Life has been really good overall, I’m still loving the job I told you about a couple of posts ago, although it’s making everything a little bit more stressful. I always wonder if the stressed feeling ever goes away, or if that’s just what life is. As a celebration of my last day of uni I gave myself a break last night. I went with my roommates to see the Australian Ballet dance “Giselle”, and it was absolutely amazing. Then we went to see a band from my old school perform at West End.

The main thing I really wanted to say with this is that my blog really needs to be revamped. It needs to be more focused, and the design definitely needs to be more grown up. I want to tell you about my experiences with going vegetarian, and I want to turn this into more of a lifestyle blog rather than a jumbled mess. I can’t believe I’ve been writing to you all since 2012, and it’s cool to be able to read back through my life and see how much has happened. It’s also super nice to be able to come back after being gone for over a month, and see that people from around the world are still reading my blog every day. It makes me feel like I really need to try harder and actually give you some good content to read, rather than just rambles about my simple life.

So after the 9th of June all of my assessment will be done and I’ll be free to write a whole lot more. I’m really looking forward to some freedom. I can’t wait to revamp this blog and turn it into something I’m proud of.

As always,

Much love,

Tamara Joy xo

Getting a Job

Hi everyone,

I have been back in Brisbane for a week now, and it’s crazy to see how much my life has changed in such a short amount of time. It went from easy breezy (and a bit on the boring side) to full on, scary and terribly exciting. Today was my first day as an employed copywriter for a digital marketing agency! But before I get into that, I want to talk a little bit about the interview because oh my goodness, I don’t remember ever being that nervous. My main weaknesses are thinking on the spot and selling myself, so interviews aren’t really my forte. Here are a few things that I did that helped me calm down enough to function:

– Being completely honest. The thing that calmed me down the most was knowing that I wasn’t pretending to be anything that I wasn’t. I was honest about my level of experience, and I didn’t lie about my personality in any way. In a job interview, you’re going to be nervous and you’re going to worry about impressing the interviewer, so the last thing you need is to worry about living up to a false expectation.

– Thinking about things that are scarier than job interviews. On the bus on my way there, I was listing things that would be scarier than what I was about to do, like giving an important presentation in front of thousands of people with no notes.

– Breaking it down. All an interview requires you to do is to walk, sit, talk, and maybe drink a coffee. You can do all of those things.

I made sure I caught the bus early enough so that even if I missed it, I would be able to catch the next one and still be on time. I didn’t miss any buses, so this meant an excruciating hour of waiting for the interview. The interview itself was the least nerve wracking thing in the whole process. I sat down with a coffee and two really nice people, answered some questions and that was it. I guess the moral of this story is to not over think things and just take life as it comes, but I know that’s not a very useful piece of advice because I’ve told it to myself a thousand times and it never seems to stick.

Anyway, it turns out that they liked my writing enough to hire me, and now I have a job that is a step forward in my career! The nervous feeling hasn’t really subsided yet because I’m still so unsure about everything, but I think most of it is just excitement. I’m a little anxious to see how I’m going to handle everything once uni starts up again, and I have a feeling my life is about to get really busy. I’ve only have one piece of work to do so far and already I’ve been writing almost all day. My day was spent drafting some ideas, writing for work, and writing this blog post. After this I’m going to work on my novel, and then do some reading for uni. My day is full but it’s full of things that I love, and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

If you have a job interview coming up, or just anything else that you are nervous about, I wish you the best of luck. Smile, and just remember that any experience is a good experience. You can do it!

I feel like I might actually go through with my new years resolutions this year – “Don’t let fear hold you back” – Tick.

Until next time,
Lots of love
Tamara.joy xo

Studying abroad – Plans for 2016.

Hey guys,
I’ve wanted to go on exchange ever since I started uni, but I always ruled it out as being either too expensive, too scary, or both of those things. Well after doing a whole lot of research, I’ve decided to put my new years resolutions into action (see: https://tamarajoydrazic.wordpress.com/2015/01/01/and-just-like-that-its-2015/) and stop letting fear limit me. If all goes well (if I actually get accepted) I will be spending Semester 1 of 2016 in Bath, UK, the city that inspired incredible writers like Jane Austen and Charles Dickens. That’s the plan, but I will need do a lot of hard work and save a lot of money before I can get there. I just feel like exchange is one of those things that nobody ever regrets doing, and I really don’t want to miss out on anything that could make me a more worldly, experienced and more confident person. As you know from my travel stories I absolutely fell in love with London and said that I would love to live in the UK for a while. I didn’t realise at the time that it wasn’t such a far off, way-into-the-future kind of dream, but something that I could achieve only two years later if I made it happen.

Mr B’s Book Emporium in Bath (image from TripAdvisor):

This photo of Bath is courtesy of TripAdvisor

The writing course at Bath Spa University is part of “one of the largest and most successful writing departments in the UK and indeed the world,” (http://www.bathspa.ac.uk/schools/school-of-humanities-and-cultural-industries/courses/undergraduate/creative-writing/publishing) and the more I read about it the more I fall in love with the idea of studying English IN England. 2015 is going to be a very busy year for me but I promise that I will post when I can! I hope that this has maybe given you a bit of the travel bug and/or has inspired you to actually take the first step in putting your new years resolutions into action. You are in charge of what happens in your lifetime, make the most of it.

That’s all for now,
Lots of love
Tamara.joy xo

And just like that, it’s 2015.

Happy New Year everybody!(also Merry Christmas, sorry for being late)

I can’t believe 2014 is over – the year I moved out, traveled Europe, started uni and turned 18 is now behind me. 2014 was such an amazing year and I’m sad to leave it behind, although I’m making it my mission to never let “the best time of my life” be over. People always say that the school years are the best years of your life, but this year has most definitely proved them wrong in my case. I hope you all enjoyed your New Year’s celebrations, and have come up with some good resolutions! Here are mine in case you’re short on ideas:

* Be happy.
* Stay healthy (mentally and physically).
* Be more proactive (actually get a job).
* Be brave (don’t let fear of failure stop you from trying).

They’re just basic things that I think will improve my overall well being, and putting them out there on this blog makes the whole resolution thing feel a lot more concrete. I hope you’ve come up with some attainable goals (almost anything is attainable if you work hard) that will help make 2015 the best year yet, but not the best year you will ever have. I wish you all the best in achieving all that you want to achieve and I hope that together we can motivate each other to keep working hard on making things happen. Our minds have so much more power than we give them credit for.

That’s all for now,
Good luck!
Tamara.joy xo

What I think about when there’s nothing I have to think about.

Hey guys, welcome to one of my late night philosophical rants!

I have finally finished all my assessment for the year and I’m feeling absolutely free. I’m not really sure why I’m writing this, but today I feel like I want to tell you what I think about when there’s nothing I have to think about, and maybe see if anyone else has the same weird quirks. When I’m stressed I completely shut down and don’t think about anything other than the work that needs to be done. As soon as my brain is free to wonder without distractions though, I start to over think absolutely everything. It’s not that I’m particularly worried about consequences or what people will think of me – it’s much more internal. I think about whether or not I’ll remember a certain moment in twenty years, or if I’ll remember the fact that I thought about whether or not I’d remember it. I try to imagine the exact feeling I’ll have after I do what I do, and then I compare my imagined feeling with how I really feel. I do this all the time, like if I’m on the bus I think of myself getting off the bus and try to pinpoint exactly how I will feel. Weird, I know.

I sometimes find special moments in the most mundane activities. Like today, I was doing the washing up, and the breeze that was coming in through the window made my eyes water. I looked up and the sky was a beautiful deep blue because the sun was going down, and then a tear rolled down my cheek because of the cold wind, and I just thought that I wanted to remember this moment forever and remember exactly how I felt. I document so many of these moments, and whenever I listen to music on the bus or before bed I go through them like a case file, remembering all the little pieces of my life and trying not to miss anything. I know this is sounding super crazy but it’s not like it affects the way I act; it’s just a constant thing that’s going on in the background of my mind when it feels free to do what it wants. Does anyone do this? Please comment, it would be nice to know that I’m not the only one!

I’m an INFP (check out my post: “Personality Type – INFP” if you have no idea what that means) and they’re known to be a little distant (ok, very distant) and out of touch with reality, which could explain why I spend so much time inside my brain. I do think though that the “out of touch with reality” thing is only true for a certain type of reality. I think every person has a different reality, and I know that I am very in touch with mine.

Like I said I don’t really know why I’m writing all of this, but this blog has become a sort of diary for me and writing has always been my way of making sense of myself and my thoughts. I’m sorry if it’s a little disjointed or confusing, I didn’t plan this at all and basically just put my thoughts on the page in the order that they were coming to me. I’m so interested to see if anyone else has similar quirks, or entirely different quirks for that matter. If you feel like sharing, please make the comment section of this post a place to do just that!

I hope you enjoyed reading, and I’ll be back soon with that post about Prague!
Until then, much love
Tamara.Joy xo